Monday, June 25, 2012
Well today I hit 12 weeks,
12 weeks what you say?
12 weeks with out a smoke.....yep smoke free for 12 weeks. Doesn't sound much, in fact sounds a bit average really, but for me it is an achievement.
I have smoked since I was 16, (43 now) gave up once for a few weeks but never stuck at it. I was also quite a heavy smoker, at one time easily putting away 40 a day. Over the last year though I have cut back.
Now of course it is a social evil. You are relegated to back alleys and seeking shelter from the rain in unattended bus stops. You cant smoke in bars, malls, even out side watching Taylor's football game, all the grounds are smoke free. It is a far cry from when I grew up as a kid with two parents that smoked. Although Mum was just casual. Still I remember when they had friends over and the house being full with smoke. Never thought anything of it back then. But social pressures have come to bear and it was time I took control and got rid of them. It seems now smokers are social outcasts. I went riding with the gravel guys one day and out of 19 riders I was the only one that smoked. Felt a bit embarrassed really. Kept having to hide behind the trees.
No body forced me to give it away,and the cost is irrelevant. Ask most smokers the cost of ciggies annoys them but is not often a factor in giving up, well I should rephrase that, cost is not normally the only factor.
So I was standing outside having a smoke on April 2nd, and I decided there and then I had had enough. Mentally I just flicked a switch or something, and made a conscious decision not to smoke. I threw the remaining smokes I had in the bin and have just got on with it. It hasn't been easy, but then it hasn't been as hard as I thought either. I realize the cravings don't last for long , a few minutes and then they pass, and it is then a while before they come back.
I dint tell many people I gave up, kept it to myself for fear of failure and embarrassment. But 12 weeks on I have no desire to start, feel good, and firmly believe I am going to stick at it. It has become to hard to be a smoker, and it will only get harder. Sooner or later I was gonna have to can it. The government is talking about making New Zealand smoke free by 2025....I am sure it will probably happen, not sure how they intend to replace the 1.5 billion they make off tobacco sales, but they will find a way!
So here I am now making myself accountable to you. So do I feel better? Not really. I have put on a bit of weight which has me feeling a bit lumpy, but that has settled down now and I am back under control on that side of things...man the appetite kicked in big time the day after I quit.
Now where did I put those MM's.......